DarkRoseDamael

Yay it was Christmas today. Last night was Hell. Me and Nelia were watching a movie and Mommy was yelling at us to go and help her clean, and we kept telling her that we wanted to finish the movie first. And when the thing was almost done nelly walked out of the room and started yelling at Mommy and Mommy was yelling at her the nelly ran into the basement crying. When I came downstairs to find her she was on the floor crying. I don't really remember too much about what happened after. I remember apologizing for ruining their Christmas, 'cause I felt like I had. Then I broke down crying. Mom's yelling sounded just like when Karl used to yell and I couldn't take that.

Mom left during the time that I was crying in nelly arms. Then Nate came down and yelled that it was all our fault that mom left and I don't know why but I couldn't take hearing that. He didn't mean what I comprehended it as but I collapsed again and started crying. I could take the fact that I had ruined someone else's Christmas. After that I just kind of sat in the basement and rocked back and forth saying 'make it go away.' I don't know why but I was hoping that Nathaniel could do that. That I would just fade away and not deal with what was going on. But that didn't happen. He ignored me, I didn't really know at the time if he was even listening to me. I don't know if he was.


Anyway I was downloading a whole bunch of Fruits Basket Amvs. They were amusing and I liked a lot of them. Am re-in love with the show.

I am listen to 'We belong together' I really love this song. It sad and depressing if you think about it. the lyrics and everything. It's a good song if you break up with some one and want to go back out with them.